Tuesday, January 31, 2006
urgh updating site... urgh it still sucks... urgh can't see the light of day
Caffine is so good. Grande Mocha takes my days to new heights. I find that I've been talking alot to myself while I stride through campus between classes so much so that I think I'm reaching a new level of madness. Talking, smiling, laughing... yep, definately going crazy.
And its not Math 308 which is really bothering me. #$^$^&# damn Linear Algebra. Wait, no... its #%%$ Chinese teacher who is teaching the damn subject that is making me fustrated. He writes so softly on the boards and he can't really articulate concepts well. Its all his fault that I'm under stress.
So maybe its the New Year. Or at least, the first of many Chinese New Years spent outside of Singapore. Was it really a significant part of my life? Gah, why the hell am I so happy now when I didn't give a rat's ass back home. My mom used to say, "A hungry man is an angry man". I am hungry and only non-americanised food can fill me.
Change is embarassing.
And its not Math 308 which is really bothering me. #$^$^&# damn Linear Algebra. Wait, no... its #%%$ Chinese teacher who is teaching the damn subject that is making me fustrated. He writes so softly on the boards and he can't really articulate concepts well. Its all his fault that I'm under stress.
So maybe its the New Year. Or at least, the first of many Chinese New Years spent outside of Singapore. Was it really a significant part of my life? Gah, why the hell am I so happy now when I didn't give a rat's ass back home. My mom used to say, "A hungry man is an angry man". I am hungry and only non-americanised food can fill me.
Change is embarassing.
Monday, January 23, 2006
I blame the weather
It has made me sluggish
Sloppy
Sleepy
I can't do work. I can't wake up right away. I can't stop running through the cold just to warm up.
I like it.
It has made me sluggish
Sloppy
Sleepy
I can't do work. I can't wake up right away. I can't stop running through the cold just to warm up.
I like it.
I miss familar people.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Blimey, just when I thought noone bothers reading my blog, someone on MSN starts asking me about that last post.
I guess I'd have to stop writing for like a year or two just to get rid of you >.<
Anyhoos, thinking back during the new years, I can hardly believe that I'm sitting in a dorm room, getting ready for the next day's assignment when only a year ago I was still in the Navy, on a silly little patrol boat on new years sailing the Singapore Straits. Back then, there was nothing to expect, nothing to worry for, not much to plan around. Everyday is the same deal, the same routine, the same people interacting with me. To be honest, it became really comforting to be in a familiar lifestyle at that point of time, always thinking of ORD and yet not needing to be concerned about the future.
The future scares me now.
As friends begin graduating from universities... as they plan for their future... I sit here, often wondering what I'm doing. Am I being left behind my peers? Or am I just desperately trying to follow a trend, a fixed path that everyone has been through? Should I hold on to what I have, to what I am familiar with or should I seek new grounds to explore?
Darius the Great
Loves to make pointless Haikus
Or is he just bored?
I guess I'd have to stop writing for like a year or two just to get rid of you >.<
Anyhoos, thinking back during the new years, I can hardly believe that I'm sitting in a dorm room, getting ready for the next day's assignment when only a year ago I was still in the Navy, on a silly little patrol boat on new years sailing the Singapore Straits. Back then, there was nothing to expect, nothing to worry for, not much to plan around. Everyday is the same deal, the same routine, the same people interacting with me. To be honest, it became really comforting to be in a familiar lifestyle at that point of time, always thinking of ORD and yet not needing to be concerned about the future.
The future scares me now.
As friends begin graduating from universities... as they plan for their future... I sit here, often wondering what I'm doing. Am I being left behind my peers? Or am I just desperately trying to follow a trend, a fixed path that everyone has been through? Should I hold on to what I have, to what I am familiar with or should I seek new grounds to explore?
Darius the Great
Loves to make pointless Haikus
Or is he just bored?
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
New year, new beginning. I'm content with the last year and how things went so smoothly. Anyways, I guess I presented myself like the nice Singaporean that i'm supposed to portray. I gues this is proof:
"It's XXXxxx from english 131 last quarter. My friend was telling me about how she had to do an essay for her english class this quarter and interview an immigrant about their experiences. I told her about how you came from Singapore jsut this year, and she was wondering if you had anytime at all to do an interview this week before friday, maybe thursday for however long you can. She needs to know by tomorrow so could you please e-mail me back??? Thanks!"
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"It's XXXxxx from english 131 last quarter. My friend was telling me about how she had to do an essay for her english class this quarter and interview an immigrant about their experiences. I told her about how you came from Singapore jsut this year, and she was wondering if you had anytime at all to do an interview this week before friday, maybe thursday for however long you can. She needs to know by tomorrow so could you please e-mail me back??? Thanks!"
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