Monday, December 27, 2004
WHO CAN SAVE YOUR SOUL?
Ora Et Labora.
If you're still visiting this site and hoping that I'd actually put something on after all this time, well, just for once i'll indulge you. However, I think its highly unlikely that i'd post anywhere between now and next year so... too bad.
My mind is occupied with the fact that sailing on a small ship really really sucks especially when you just enter unprotected waters ( as choppy seas ). On Christmas Eve?
Imagine this: The boat rocks back and forth so much so as to simulate a neverending "Viking" ship ride. Your best efforts at holding back your puke is drastically hampered with the fact that your fellow junior ship crew has just shown you his lunch in a clear plastic vomitting bag. Military duties on ship require you to spot objects far away using a pair of binoculars... while the boat is rocking back and forth. Your attempt at sleep doesn't succeed not only because of the rocking of the ship but also because of the super duper powerful air conditioner which is uncontrollable that works throughout the ship just for cooling purposes.
I thank God for this. Its good to know what is bad to truely understand what you have/ have had/ is going to lose.
Crunch time. I am struggling with myself to finish my preparation for university. Its been awhile and I still fail to bring myself to do the "important (general) things in life". I wonder what is more pathetic, the taste of failure or the desire to want to fail just to run away from all this trouble.
Pathetic. I'm thinking that my mind's really quite messed up and its been like this for so long that its really modus operandi for me now. Do i really take the time to clear things up? No. Would I rather push all of this away to some hidden corner to rot and cultivate fungi? Yes. Am I succumbing to a self fulfilling prophesy? Most definately.
Fear -> Anger -> Hate -> Suffering
Maybe I'll look up on this: http://www.datanation.com/fallacies/index.htm
*selfloathing* UOY ETAH I ...htrae eht fo mucs uoy yeobsuiraD ...ooO*selfloathing*
The past is bleak, the future is bright.
Ora Et Labora.
If you're still visiting this site and hoping that I'd actually put something on after all this time, well, just for once i'll indulge you. However, I think its highly unlikely that i'd post anywhere between now and next year so... too bad.
My mind is occupied with the fact that sailing on a small ship really really sucks especially when you just enter unprotected waters ( as choppy seas ). On Christmas Eve?
Imagine this: The boat rocks back and forth so much so as to simulate a neverending "Viking" ship ride. Your best efforts at holding back your puke is drastically hampered with the fact that your fellow junior ship crew has just shown you his lunch in a clear plastic vomitting bag. Military duties on ship require you to spot objects far away using a pair of binoculars... while the boat is rocking back and forth. Your attempt at sleep doesn't succeed not only because of the rocking of the ship but also because of the super duper powerful air conditioner which is uncontrollable that works throughout the ship just for cooling purposes.
I thank God for this. Its good to know what is bad to truely understand what you have/ have had/ is going to lose.
Crunch time. I am struggling with myself to finish my preparation for university. Its been awhile and I still fail to bring myself to do the "important (general) things in life". I wonder what is more pathetic, the taste of failure or the desire to want to fail just to run away from all this trouble.
Pathetic. I'm thinking that my mind's really quite messed up and its been like this for so long that its really modus operandi for me now. Do i really take the time to clear things up? No. Would I rather push all of this away to some hidden corner to rot and cultivate fungi? Yes. Am I succumbing to a self fulfilling prophesy? Most definately.
Fear -> Anger -> Hate -> Suffering
Maybe I'll look up on this: http://www.datanation.com/fallacies/index.htm
*selfloathing* UOY ETAH I ...htrae eht fo mucs uoy yeobsuiraD ...ooO*selfloathing*
The past is bleak, the future is bright.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
http://mediax.muchosucko.com/movies/512_dwarf_dance.mov
I'm addicted again.
I'd like to thank all who were celebrating my birthday. Thank You.
I'm addicted again.
I'd like to thank all who were celebrating my birthday. Thank You.
