Sunday, November 07, 2004
I finally know what a saccharine smile is
But still... Problems problems problems.
I have all the problems . Only I have problems. I can't create complete sentences. I am self centred. I am like this for many days. I can't think. I don't wanna think. Call it the ostrich syndrome. I am going to be 20 soon. I am still wasting my life. While my peers are kicking my ass in experience. Hooray. -1 to ego. Exams push me around. The SAT II subject tests were not good. I failed my final theory driving exam. -2 to ego. I am clueless as to how to approach my application essay to the US universities. ouch. I am finally getting posted to some vocation. Complications abound. Noone knows what is happening. I can't seem to relate the entire story to anyone without making them sleep. I want to break free. I don't know. I don't want to face it. I don't want to grow up. I am so comfortable where I am. Why should I even bother. Movies are just excuses to socialise. Never thought that a simple cup of tea or coffee could spark any conversations. I am running out of time. Time is running from me. I am confused. I don't know what I want. I have nothing I want. I can't think any further than 5 mins later. How can I be independent. We are all interdependent. Where's my brain? I'm losing thought.
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I want to rule the world.
But still... Problems problems problems.
I have all the problems . Only I have problems. I can't create complete sentences. I am self centred. I am like this for many days. I can't think. I don't wanna think. Call it the ostrich syndrome. I am going to be 20 soon. I am still wasting my life. While my peers are kicking my ass in experience. Hooray. -1 to ego. Exams push me around. The SAT II subject tests were not good. I failed my final theory driving exam. -2 to ego. I am clueless as to how to approach my application essay to the US universities. ouch. I am finally getting posted to some vocation. Complications abound. Noone knows what is happening. I can't seem to relate the entire story to anyone without making them sleep. I want to break free. I don't know. I don't want to face it. I don't want to grow up. I am so comfortable where I am. Why should I even bother. Movies are just excuses to socialise. Never thought that a simple cup of tea or coffee could spark any conversations. I am running out of time. Time is running from me. I am confused. I don't know what I want. I have nothing I want. I can't think any further than 5 mins later. How can I be independent. We are all interdependent. Where's my brain? I'm losing thought.
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I want to rule the world.
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