Ramblings of a Crazed Fool

Wow how time does fly. It seemed like it was Friday night where I was sitting infront of the computer playing online.

The next thing that hit me was -> bloated stomach, sleep, vomit, sleep, wake up, headache, warm cup of milo, vomit, more headache + stomach ache, smell of medicine at the doctor's, nice smell of bed, sleep, midnight insanity, sleep, morning sun, sleep, now.

I can't say I feel better. Probably just weaker than before.

Have you ever tasted the afterscent of vomit? Its almost sweet and delicious... good but not enough for your gut to start trying to squeeze out of your mouth. I'm not talking about the bile and the liquid that was previously your lunch... oh no. I guess its hard to describe.

Mystery of the missing little girl solved. Another random sad story being blown up by the media. Doesn't it make you wonder what happens to the other 500,000 or more kidnap cases that happens in this region? Do taxi drivers looking around for the rest of the missing?

Urgh. I need rest. I don't wanna go back to camp tomorrow...

There are times I wonder if being sick forever would really warrant lots of attention.

I guess that constant headaches and vommitting is really not worth the effort. I hate being sick now.

I saw this:

The road home.

I have noticed something amongst all these days of taking the MRT home. Firstly, it takes about an hour to get from Boon Lay to Yio Chu Kang.
Secondly, the laws of gravity act greatly on sleep heads and the law of attraction often act between that same head and the shoulder of the person sitting next to you and not between some random pretty face and yourself.
Thirdly, somehow there are always more females in public transport. I don't really know why. I'll grab a random picture someday to prove this.
Fourth, my mind wanders alot.
Lastly, some safety signs are really retarded. Due to the fourth observation, I see this:



Long train rides really make me think when I'm not already drooling while dreaming on someone's shoulder. Its not enough for music to take my mind off... which is good cause I get to do some much needed introspection, leading me to my greatest weakness: Gaming Addiction.

The link is something I came across in a forum of sorts online and its good to see that the problem of mine is actually a widespread one amongst computer users. Funny that I can't seem to be able to completely understand why I'm drifting into games instead of focusing on reality but being disconnected from the real world sometimes just doesn't really scare me as much as me being disconnected to this virtual world. Maybe because the virtual world is so riskless.

Anyhoos, if you're addicted to something or is obsessed with things... Here's how one guy adopted Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous combat his addiction to games:

1. We admitted we were powerless over on-line gaming, and that our lives have become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other compulsive on-line gamers and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

- Taken From http://www.olganon.org/About/12_Steps/12_steps.html

Interesting eh? I wasn't sure what AA is about before, now i know. Yay.

I also noticed that there are an increase in those "Visit Taiwan" travel posters and ads. Is it the government's attempt to nurture better relations with Taiwan? Don't they know that they have sadly taken sides with one of history's baddest political war? Now they've insulted China, Taiwan has insulted us... where do we stand, humiliated? Its just my thoughts.

Random Links:
Some Chinese researchers have found the HIV immune gene?

Pretty nice Optical Illusions.

I have been just told that I have duty on Sunday. That prevents me from taking another driving lesson! ARgh... SAF... Its almost like they have a knife in your stomach and just when the bleeding has stopped and you actually breathe normally for once... they twist the knife AND stab you in the back at the same time. Talk about abuse...

Here's something I bought and kinda decorated for a birthday present. Personally, I like the figure's poise... all peaceful and relaxed. I got it without the box as it was the display set, the only one left. As long as there is light, it keeps nodding its head. And nodding. And nodding. Just like the faithful Zhao Cai Mao. Makes me wanna sleep. Don't know if the sign is too much. Thoughts?



People often wonder why I don't really wanna go out from my house on weekends. One of the excuses I can think of is that the only mode of transport is 15mins away from my house and that I am just too lazy to walk out in the hot afternoon sun (For I know that I always get up near noon on weekends) just to take a ride to the city for less than 2 hours. Rational bids me to stay at home staring endlessly to a light emmitting box full of rubbish.

I don't know if you have noticed but the colours for the font on the left column always changes when you refresh the page... so does the quotes at the top left. If you cannot see the words... just highlight them. Something I did... Please please please say something in my chat box... they keep threatening to delete it because its gathering so much dust.



Don't we all have to walk the long way to our true home?

The End Game.



All your base are belong to us. I'm making a T-shirt about it. I hope you'd understand what it is and apperciate it when I give one to you when you ask for it. I'll post more when the design is done.

If you haven't watched "New Police Story"... get ready to see a grown man cry. Otherwise, its a mix of a typical Jacky Chan movie + Cliche plot. Jacky, you're at the end of your era.

I have gone through my first driving lesson with a guy with 11 fingers. 8 fingers and 3 thumbs if you don't consider thumbs fingers. All i can say is... Funky. I'm loving to drive and driving to love. Ok perhaps not the latter. I think I'd be very dangerous on the road. Stepping on the acclerator makes me high, reminds me of Daytona USA where I specialised in making cars crash. Oh wait, thats the other game I'm playing.



Makes me really really jealous of all you people out there with a driving license already.

Why does everyone think that I have a non-asian face? Is it the chin? (too protruding) The eyes?(too sleepy) The way I move? (Like a zombie) My skin? (too pale). Ever since I went to army, people in camp and out of camp began to question my origins. Some even believed that my name is really a typo... Should have been Boeyan bin Darrus. Somehow it became more obvious when I told them I was born in Canada.

"Oh yeah, you look like you're born in Canada."


Too fake.

I'm high on caffine.

If I were to name my favourite beverage... There would be no particular one. Its just that coffee just makes you so much more awake and able to do things. For a person who's half dreaming most of the time, whenever I drink coffee its like the elixr of life or something. I am enlightened. I see. I can actually get my rusty brain started. I salute you, Nescafe.

For the past week, I had to drink coffee to stay awake just so that I can leave a good impression on the instructor incamp. That I would not be like my juniors and sleep with their mouths open while the instructor is teaching. So that I would not get caught outside and get charged for sleeping in public in army uniform. As if anyone would care.

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NS Update: I'm now a trainee to be going onboard a ship for ship duties. Which means I sail. However, the SAF decides to review my medical status ( if you have been following my rambling, I'm not really fit for anything for the past 6 months.). Now they say that I am fit for fighting according to their "directives". Sure spoils the master plan of mine.

I reflected this to my new superiors who immediately wanted me to get out of training again. Maybe its because after training, I only have 6 months to serve NS and that replacing me would take about 3-4 months, which is a very big hassle. Lucky me.

Now, I await the movements of my superiors and observe how they play the game which is my fate in the service. I guess this is what I wanted from the start. What fun watching others downgrade and go to slack units in less than 1/8th of the time I took to do all this shit. First hand experience of redtape? You tell me.
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For you: Something Cute.