Ramblings of a Crazed Fool

Bugger it.

I have got to get a life.
I've actually spent my precious weekend just staring at the computer screen while fending off friends who want to go out on the mobile phone without keeping my eyes off the monitor. Sorry dear friends. Those imaginary and real.
Plus, I didn't even talk to my mom who just came back from her trip to the US. "I think I don't even know who you are anymore." says my mom. With tone inducing Ouch + Guilt. Times 100. And i shrugged it off just to slaughter more pixilated enemies on my screen.

What is wrong with this picture?

*blank* Mind block. Brb.

Its Wednesday and I already feel that I'm drained out. Maybe its because I've been slacking all this while and that a little bit of physical exaustion has all but killed me.

For the last two days i've been on a firefighting course. The first day was all theory and stuff so thats cool but today was the worst! We had to wear overalls and ON TOP OF THAT we wore the fireman's coat and we had to carry an air cylinder for breathing. And we crawled around in a maze for 30 mins. I must say that I'm not really used to breathing through an air set. Though tired (the part which i hate the most), I can't wait to fight fire in an enclosed area tomorrow!

My parents are not at home at all. My mom has gone to the US to witness my brother's graduation ceremony and my dad has gone on a business trip. It all sounds good but there won't be anyone at home to pamper the hell out of me during the precious weekend... damn.

It seems that good news is all around but I still can't help feeling a little sad. Maybe its because of the drawback from computer gaming addiction.

First, I'm sure you know, all NSF service terms have been cut down by 2 mths at least. AND that could be an excuse for them not to promote me to CPL so that i'd serve 2 years and not 2 years and 2 months.

Secondly, i'm "hosting" a x-box lan party down at the xbox centre at dhoby gaut MRT station this saturday. Please come down if you wanna join in... I'm guessing that we'd have a marvy time.

Then again I think i'm just sad cuz there's noone to talk to in camp.

Its Monday and my stay out dream is going to be postponed. For now.

The good news is that the course that I thought was going to last for 2 months is going to last for 2 weeks max.

The bad news is that its not going to be the only course which I would be going for. With likelyhood of 75%.

I guess I just have to have patience.

Luckly, its the only thing i was trained for in NDU.

Trainee life. Easy day.

Venus is hiding in the sun today.

She is making me jealous.

They want me to do computer stuff again.

He really wants me.

I have to prepare for another again.

I worry for where I will be in August.

I have not begun to comprehend.

My bad.
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I wanted to see the sky today.

I want to explore foriegn lands.

ISO documentation is becoming my forte.

I lose myself. Again.

The Final Theory Test.

Am I going to enjoy?

The greater good.

Lousy Blogging.

I'm staying out of camp this week.

And its all because i've been posted to the other side of the navy... the non-diver side.

NOTE: Its not that i have anything violent against NDU but i'm thinking that the system in the department that i was formerly doing my NS in was really terrible.

Anyways, I've just been posted to the INTO's training branch, which is really not much different from the training department which I was at when I enlisted and stayed until yesterday. The good thing is that I'm now given the no responsibilities.

I'm currently supposed to go on course (its just a course where you learn basic seamanship and the rules and regulations of seafaring) but the course doesn't start until the 15th of June so I'm shoved into the office to be their office boy (Yet again).

My only fear now is of the posting that they would give me when I complete the course... Which is around August. By then, I'd be done with 1/1/2 of my NS time and that any posting would not be much of an effect on me cuz I'd be thinking of ORD and how to clear my outstanding leave for the year and next year. But I am still upset by the fact that I don't know where I am going or what I'm going to do in after the course. Anxiety gnaws at my soul.

Two days ago I retook my SATs. I guess it was just as i expected. Hope the results are as expected too.

Harry Potter has lost its magical atmosphere and its just like the other Harry movies where there's a twist at the end. And its much darker this time. You can almost see that Harry is a much disturbed guy, someone who can blow himself up at any moment.

This is all I can think about now. Final Theory for Driving is on Thursday. Pray that I'd be focused. I haven't really studied for it. Yet.

Oh, and this is my addiction for now:





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I sum it up:

"it's amazing how fast time on the net passes

when you're not even doing anything productive. " -William

You can find his blog on the left toolbar. Thanx william.